We are not trying. Yup. Done.
Let me back track. My last appointment was in May (? I think? I know I didn’t update, I was not happy after that appointment.) So the appointment went like this;
Dr. “So yea, all your tests came back fine.Your thyroid levels are back to normal. All your husband test came back fine. So just keep taking your thyroid medication and call us when you’re pregnant.”
Me. ” Um, okay?”
Yea. I was pretty pissed. Probably cause I am so impatient. And because THIS IS 3 YEARS IN THE MAKING. And my husband is most likely being deployed in the next year….So time is limited.
So yea. Two to three weeks ago we decided. We are done trying. We also started seeing a family therapist. Together. I’ve seen a therapist in the past alone, but I felt we both needed this.
He brought up a good point. What’s your plan? What next? He said I don’t take you as someone who doesn’t have a plan. So what is it? I replied with “Well my Dr said to come back when I am pregnant soooooo, I’m not really sure.” And he asked me if I was okay with this, is this my plan too? And I said “Well no, I want to go straight to a fertility clinic, and a Reproductive Endocrinologist now.” He said, okay, why aren’t you? What is stopping you?
I didn’t have an answer. I recently switched my insurance so I don’t need a referral so why am I not just calling and making an appointment with Dr Cooper (The only and the best fertility specialist in Wilmington)?
The next day I called and made an appointment. They asked if I had a referral and I said, I’ve been trying for 3 years to get one and no one can explain why I can’t get pregnant and stay pregnant, yet won’t write me a referral, and I am so over it. Please help me. And she said, “How does September 22nd sound?”
I think I didn’t want to make the appointment cause I was scared. I didn’t want to come to terms with my infertility. I didn’t want it to be this hard. Why is this so hard? Why do we have to do it the hard way? My family is SO fertile! My Mom always said “Your Dad just walked by me and I was pregnant.” So no pressure right?
Any way, that’s the update. We are not trying, we are enjoying each other, and our dogs, and our new home. And I am SOOOOOOO relaxed. I feel like I’m on my Xanax all the time. But I’m NOT! 🙂
Love you all! Sorry for the silence on the blog. I’ll be better now. Sorry! 🙂